I think as a culture, we subscribe to the notion that money is the root of all evil. When I started my private practice, I had extreme discomfort dealing with money. I avoided talking about it with patients. I was afraid of overcharging and when negotiating for projects, I felt like I should be thankful that I am given these projects and that therefore, I should not complain about how much I am being paid. I remember having felt guilty about receiving a big sum of money for a certain project that I executed outstandingly. I felt money was dirty and that I was bad if I had lots of it. Deep inside, I wanted to have money but I felt that I didn’t deserve it. I didn’t think that I can have enough money to satisfy my needs. I didn’t think that I can get to a point of unimaginable wealth. I felt that other people can have great wealth but never me. More than enough money seemed like an illusion and was therefore unattainable. It was just something you dream about but never get to a point of achieving. This was my state of mind and this is where the problem lies.
Money can be very emotional. It has ruined families, ruined friendships and ruined lives. I think that it is actually “the lack and love of” money which are the root of all evil. Lack of money causes a desperate father to rob or kill people to feed his family. Lack of money can cause a women to sell her body and soul to feed her children. Lack of money can cause people to be corrupt and dishonest. Lack of money can cause people to do unpleasant and unfavourable things.
“Lack of money” is an illusion. It is a state of mind that many of us are in. It is a state of mind of “There is not enough of everybody” or “If I have more, other people will have less”. “Lack of money” is so imaginary such that a person can continue existing in this state even if he is already wealthy by all standards.
So I started shifting my consciousness towards seeing money in a positive light. I worked on (and continually do so) seeing money in a positive way from one of bad, evil, dirty to seeing money as a tool that can actually do good. I worked on shifting from feelings of guilt and unworthiness to one of having a deep conviction that “Everybody has a right to wealth and that it is not bad to aspire for it”. I convinced myself that it is my responsibility to get to a point of being very wealthy because it is part of my evolution. It is no longer just about having the money but it has already become a force seeking expression. It has gone above the plane of the physical to the metaphysical. What a great idea it is to go beyond worrying about money to sustain day to day needs to one of being able to use money to empower more people and drive them towards achieving their full potential.
Money is not about having more things (although we also shouldn’t feel guilty about having beautiful and worthwhile things around us), status and all the external trappings that come with being successful. It is about evolution, meaning in life and getting to a point of believing what we are capable. It is about learning and living the true meaning of abundance. It is truly a state of mind. It is about experiencing our capacity to give without thinking that we grow less. I want to be wealthy because I want to use it to help make other people’s lives more meaningful. This is my mission.